I have been feeling so sick of myself. My inability to lose this damn weight. I have been trying for 25 years and I feel like a complete failure and I am not saying that because I am feeling sorry for myself I am just sick of it.
I think that I have felt this way before but before my life was not depending on it. My life is depending on it, my children are depending on me. I think all the stress of trying to find work, support my two children, pay my two mortgages and huge debt down while not making any money, creditors calling day and night and a bleak bleak black hole staring me in the face is causing severe trauma to my self-esteem lol...
YAY I laughed at myself.
Ok so where do I go from here. WHAT is that saying when you are at your lowest all you can go is up!! Whooo wooo.. Yippie. Good to know.
Today I ate ok. I had lots and lots of fiber. I am going to get on my very expensive treadmill tonight and walk. I am going to walk and walk and walk and talk to the Lord and ask HIM what the heck is going on. Why am I here. You know I feel like we are called for a purpose. What is my purpose God. Right now all I feel like is a giant, useless blob. Tomorrow will be better because people that know me know that I never give up. I am anti-failure. I may feel like one but deep down I know that just because I feel like a failure that doesn't make me one.
Tootles
Thursday, September 6, 2007
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Hey, I understand. I weighed 283 pounds. Now I weigh 170. The diet? A modified Zone diet.
How tall are you, Weighty Lady? That determines your muscle mass, and muscles burn calories. Any diet plan should be personalized to how much muscle mass you have.
An easy way to estimate is this:
Females 5'7" and under, muscle mass is around 90 pounds. So, you need 25 gm fat, 90 gm protein, and 90 carb grams daily. Half the protein should be whey protein, and half the carbs should be fruit.
If you are over 5'7", then you need about 25gm fat, 100gm protein, and 100gm carbs.
Be sure to take 10 gm omega 3's to keep your gallbladder flushing as you lose weight. This will help prevent gallstones, which are a significant risk factor to weight loss.
This diet will produce 2 pounds per week of weight loss from fat, not muscle. Learn to hit your target numbers. You won't be hungry and your energy will pick up. You lose the hungry and tired effect on day 2.
Take it from one who knows, the Zone is the best. Balancing protein and carbs so they are equal is what keeps your blood sugar in bounds, and prevents highs and lows that make you hungry and tired.
Just go get a book of food counts and use any food you want. You will need whey protein to hit your protein targets without going over on fat.
This is worth all the energy it takes to learn to become a conscious eater. Anyone who is as little as 30 pounds overweight is on their way to Type 2 diabetes.
The good news is that you feel full, and energy picks up immediately.
Best wishes,
Martha
Check out my blog at http://www.diabeticmealplanning.com
Sorry, wrong URL.
http://www.diabeticmealplanning.blogspot.com
Thanks again, and good luck!
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